I had a long childhood, and I would not trade it for the world. Now that I have over 30 years in my past, I have been feeling the tugs and itches that call for change. Recently, I have been trying to pick apart my successes as well as my trials and errors, because they have brought me to where I am today. It is sort of like trying on dresses - it takes me many, many attempts to find one that fits just right (this lazy choice of simile will make sense in a few).
People tend to ask, "what do you do for a living?" and, for some silly reason, this question has always disarmed me. I immediately felt the need to explain that I don't really know what I am doing yet, that yes, I am 31 years old and I have a ton of hobbies, and a pretty amazing life, but I haven't really found my focus, and yeah, I dropped out of graduate school, and no, I don't have kids, and yes, I am writing my first book, but it doesn't feel real, because I have never published anything before...and, wait, what was the question?
For too long, I have been operating under the wrong assumption that what I do for a living defines who I am. Paying the bills was the goal of my professional life, and over time, I lost touch with creativity. I distanced myself from all my creative endeavors because I failed to appreciate the joy in them. It took me a little extra time to realize that I simply need to write and make something with my hands every day after work, and I will find peaceful sleep at night.
In the last few years, I have moved to a new state, bought a house, adopted two cats, dropped out of a graduate school path, got hitched, and was gifted a Bernina sewing machine, which led to discovering the first activity for which I have truly held a passion: sewing!
I am throwing myself into this new hobby with all of my heart. I want to give it as much of my free time that I can spare - daydreaming, and the usual blood, sweat, and tears. I look forward to joining this inspiring community, and I will share my efforts with the steep learning curve on this website, because that's how I hope to connect with other crafty folk from around the world. So, with this first blog post, I am offering myself a cheers - to finding what I truly love. It is never, never, never too late to start something new!